Listen White Neighbor! An Action of Love and Accountability


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on August 29, lisa and i met up with a group of mostly white activists in a Black neighborhood where a white neighbor has been calling the police (and pulling other types of authorities into disputes with her neighbors). our intention was to ask this white woman, in a friendly and serious way, not to call the police on Black people.

we met early evening at the park down the street. a number of participants went around the block chalking hearts and names of Loved Ones Lost. we practiced our song at the park and a neighbor said yeah, sounds pretty good, you gotta get the timing right. we worked on that and then headed over to the white neighbor’s house. we sang our song a few times, and tried ringing her doorbell. a family next door stood on the steps watching us. the mom was holding back her little kids, keeping them on the porch. i waved and smiled, and she smiled. they seemed nervous but curious.

the white neighbor did not appear to be home. dogs were barking. we read aloud the names and stories of Black people who have been killed by police. we sent love. we sang the song a few more times. we put the song lyrics and some info about Oakland police shootings on her door, and just as we were wandering off down the street, the white neighbor lady came home. i was like ‘that’s her! that’s her! should we do it?’ we rallied back together and sang, and she at first seemed almost happy about it, she was like ‘i agree with you, but why me?’ that’s when lisa said ‘do you remember me?’ and she realized who we were there on behalf of.

it is intense to see a person being called on their shit yelling and screaming such predictable, scripted defenses, how she is such a good person, she gives food to homeless people, all her neighbors love her, her life was being threatened, not all cops come with their guns drawn, she doesn’t care if you’re black, white or chinese… etc. she also said their dog had almost bitten her arm completely off, in which case she is a miraculous healer because there were no scars or anything.

one of us very diligently and kindly kept trying to tell the white neighbor about mediation resources, as she stomped away, saying ‘who am i supposed to call? nobody comes to save me!’ several of us were calling ‘please! wait! listen! we’re coming from a place of love!’ and she slammed the door.

somewhere in the middle of all this, a conversation started with the neighbor next door on the porch with her kids, and it became known that she also was having problems with this particular white neighbor, that she is scared of her. a bilingual spanish speaker in our group stepped forward to talk with her and translate. it turns out the white lady reported this neighbor to her landlord for something having to do with her dogs, and an eviction process has been started. this neighbor was given the contact info for Causa Justa, and will be followed up with with more resources.

back at the park we debriefed. we felt good about it, a little rattled, but mostly positive. we talked about following up with the white neighbor, either in person or in a letter. a member of our group reminded us that this woman is dangerous to her brown and black neighbors, she is litigious, and we need to make sure not to make anything worse for them. two people offered to write a letter thanking the neighbor for hearing us, and offering resources for mediation and conflict resolution. we also talked about using our time and energy to support the neighbor who is facing possible eviction. members of this group will stay in contact with her to see what she needs.

i am sharing all of this because i want to talk more about how we call in difficult members of our communities. specifically i’m curious about how white people work with problematic white people, how do we ‘reel in our cousins’ ? and how do we stop violence before it happens?

Click here for the names and stories of Black people killed by police when someone called the police on them for non-crimes

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Edited: August 31st, 2015

03/14/15 – Center for Sex and Culture

Who
WildcardXFaust: The Rock Opera
When
Saturday, March 14, 2015
7:30pm - $12-20 NOTAFLOF - 18+ Buy Tickets
Where
Center for Sex and Culture (map)
1349 Mission St.
San Francisco, CA 94103
Other Info
For all of you who desire sex-positive entertainment produced by and for the diverse queer community.

For all of you who yearn for a show featuring heroes who are sex workers, kinksters, transgender, and people of color.

We wrote a rock opera for you.

WildcardxFaust interweaves the narratives of D. Faust, Jay Very, and Apaulo Hart:

Faust: A demon in a church of brimstone, nudity, and vulnerability finds that striptease becomes a form of revelation.

Wild Card: A kinky, queer comedy about a transmasculine sex worker seeking human connection.

Join us for an evening of inspiration, magic, shadows, and wonder!

For more info and updates on teaser shows, visit:
www.wildcardxfaust.com

Sponsored by the Queer Cultural Center Trouble Films and the San Francisco Arts Commission. Fiscally Sponsored by Intersection for the Arts

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Edited: March 14th, 2015

03/13/15 – Center for Sex and Culture

Who
WildcardXFaust: The Rock Opera
When
Friday, March 13, 2015
7:30pm - $12-20 NOTAFLOF - 18+ Buy Tickets
Where
Center for Sex and Culture (map)
1349 Mission St.
San Francisco, CA 94103
Other Info
For all of you who desire sex-positive entertainment produced by and for the diverse queer community.

For all of you who yearn for a show featuring heroes who are sex workers, kinksters, transgender, and people of color.

We wrote a rock opera for you.

WildcardxFaust interweaves the narratives of D. Faust, Jay Very, and Apaulo Hart:

Faust: A demon in a church of brimstone, nudity, and vulnerability finds that striptease becomes a form of revelation.

Wild Card: A kinky, queer comedy about a transmasculine sex worker seeking human connection.

Join us for an evening of inspiration, magic, shadows, and wonder!

For more info and updates on teaser shows, visit:
www.wildcardxfaust.com

Sponsored by the Queer Cultural Center Trouble Films and the San Francisco Arts Commission. Fiscally Sponsored by Intersection for the Arts




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Edited: March 13th, 2015

03/09/15 – Booth Auditorium @ UC Berkeley

Who
DISABILITY LIBERATED: Mourn the Dead and Fight like Hell for the Living
When
Monday, March 9, 2015
4:30pm - All Ages
Where
Booth Auditorium @ UC Berkeley (map)
in Boalt Hall (College/Bancroft), UCB

Berkeley, California, US 94702
Other Info
Disability Liberated was curated for Disability Incarcerated, an event hosted at UC Berkeley*, bringing together scholars, students, activists, and community members to map the intersections of policing, imprisonment, and the disabled body. This event seeks to step into the conspicuous void within critiques of the “prison industrial complex” – namely the absence of discussion of disability oppression, despite the disproportionate representation of people with disabilities within prisons and gated institutions.

Disability Liberated includes an altar building in conjunction with a Sins Invalid performance centering the stories and voices of people at threat of and surviving violence within the intersections of ableism and the prison industrial complex.

There will be no charge for the event.

Artists currently include Leroy Moore, Kiyaan Abadani, Patty Berne, Nomy Lamm, Lisa Ganser, Todd Herman, Micah Bazant, Olegario Martinez, and Damon Johnson.

Sun, March 8, 5:30p, Altar construction with community, 120 Kroeber Hall (College/Bancroft), UC Berkeley

Mon, March 9, 4:30p, Performance, Booth Auditorium in Boalt Hall (College/Bancroft), UCB

* UC Berkeley sponsors include the Haas Institute for a Fair and Inclusive Society; Center for the Study of Law and Society; HIFIS’s Race & Educational Disparities Cluster, Diversity and Democracy Cluster and Disability Studies Cluster; Dean Judith Little, School of Education; Dean Carla Hesse, Division of Social Sciences; Social and Cultural Studies Program; School of Education; Canadian Studies; The Doreen K. Townsend Center for the Humanities; Dean Anthony Cascardi, Division of Arts and Humanities

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Edited: March 9th, 2015

We Remember Kayla Moore

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“It’s always exciting to make a new friend. You maybe see them around a few times before you start getting to know them. As you get closer, you notice all the things you have in common. You get a little crush on them, seeing how sweet and funny and smart and sexy and badass they are. You find yourself talking about them to other friends, noticing things that would make them smile. You feel protective, wanting to make the world a better place for them.

It really sucks when that person is already dead.

More and more these days, I find myself making friends with someone after they’ve died. Through photos and stories from loved ones, at protests and ceremonies, and through the details of their traumatic deaths at the hands of police officers, I become entwined in their legacies. I find myself grieving the loss of someone I never knew, trying to take on some of the weight that has fallen on their families. It is painful. And confusing. And necessary.

I’d like to introduce you to Kayla Moore. Kayla is a black trans woman who grew up in Berkeley. Just a few years older than me, I imagine we would have hung out in high school. She was a punk rocker. She was fancy. She had fierce fashion. She was smart and quick to respond when people tried to put her down. She loved to go out dancing. She wrote gothic poetry. She worked from home as a phone sex operator. She was schizophrenic. She was an auntie who loved her baby niece. She was a big fat curvy babe.”

See the full article here, at The Body Is Not An Apology

 

Edited: March 4th, 2015

New Writing at The Body Is Not An Apology: This Is Disability Justice

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“Soon after I moved to San Francisco eight years ago, I was introduced to radical crip artist/activists Leroy Moore and Patty Berne, and the project they founded, Sins Invalid. I had recently been approved for federal disability benefits, and though I have a lifelong disability and have been an activist since I was a teenager – and even though I’d spent the past fifteen years doing fat liberation work, and the past five years doing personal work around the legacy of medical trauma in my life – I had not figured out a way to integrate my politics within a bigger framework of disability activism.

Sitting in the audience the first time I got to see a Sins Invalid show, I witnessed some of the most radical work I’d ever seen or imagined. I watched Lateef McLeod, a beautiful black man with cerebral palsy, recite poetry through an electronic talker and get almost naked, crawling on the floor in front of a mirror under a giant full moon. I watched porn by Loree Erickson, a queer white femme wheelchair user, heard poetry by Latina wheelchair goddess Maria Palacios, and witnessed a performance by white genderqueer crip seeley quest, who did a lap dance while wearing a molded plastic back brace. Planted in my theater seat with my fake leg tucked under my chair, I felt a familiar but all-too-uncommon sensation: an urgency, a current in my body saying “This is the moment, step into it, this is where it’s happening.” I wanted in.”

See the full article here, at The Body Is Not An Apology.

Edited: March 1st, 2015

new songs for the new year! ‘stars out’ by ganser/lamm

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lisa and i spent the month of december at hypatia-in-the-woods, an artist residency outside shelton, washington.   while we were there we wrote and recorded five songs, now available here for streaming or download (name your own price).

the five songs are presented on the album in the order that they were written and recorded.  we used different processes for writing each song – ‘stars out’ had been in the works in lisa’s mind for a couple months before the residency, after attending the wrongful death trial of asa sullivan in september. ‘whistles and bells’ was a concept lisa had been thinking about for years, and we borrowed a bunch of literal whistles and bells from my mom and my dear friend and musical collaborator erin daly (of tricrotic and ((double hug))) to bring it to fruition.  ‘like roots like fruit’ is a love song that we wrote and recorded within a couple hours, as a fun exercise and chanukah gift to each other.  lisa and i wrote lyrics for each other to sing on ‘the strong one,’ which is a cool trust exercise.  ‘she’s on our side’ is a sex song about the moon that we wrote and recorded within about an hour, literally as it was turning midnight on new years.  the songs were all recorded using accordion, loop pedal, glockenspiel and melodion, accented with whistles and bells and an occasional toy tambourine or kazoo.  it was the second album that i’ve recorded in that cabin, the first was ((double hug))‘s ‘songs and spells for decolonizing bodies’ with erin two years ago.

thank you to the woods, the moon, the winter, friends and family, salamanders and bald eagles, and you.  please enjoy these songs.

‘stars out’ by ganser/lamm, released 1/1/15

Edited: January 3rd, 2015

12/13/14 – Northwest Film Forum

Who
Un(dis)sing Our Abilities
When
Saturday, December 13, 2014
7:00pm - 18+
Where
1515 12th Ave
Seattle, WA 98122
Other Info
Periwinkle Cinema presents
Un(dis)sing Our Abilities
the Pacific Northwest premiere
18+
Saturday, Dec 13 at 7:00PM
This screening includes captions for HoH/Deaf, and includes one movie that is audio described. Please refrain from wearing scents. The brief intro and Q & A will be ASL interpreted. Please arrive early if you BYOC. no one will be turned away for lack of funds - please reserve you NOTAFLOF seat in advance. please inquire if you have any access requests/needs to Lisa Ganser (Accessibility Coordinator for Periwinkle Cinema).

Featuring a Q&A with the curators and participating artists and filmmakers including Lisa Ganser, Nomy Lamm, Lorin Murphy and Seattle's Tobi Hill-Meyer.

Un(dis)sing Our Abilities is an experimental sexplicit short movie showcase and is 18+.

* * * * *

Presented by Periwinkle Cinema, this program explores sensuality, intimacy, safety and consent through the lens of the less-represented. Curated by Lisa Ganser and Lorin Murphy, this screening implores the erotic pleasure and sexual abilities of those of us dissed, dismissed, (mis)labeled, disabled and generally passed over in mainstream queer crowds.

Redefine sexy through sex and sensuality that is healing, empowering and arousing. You'll get turned on by fat, word associate crip and porn, challenge and subvert your notions of gender, sexuality and self, while exposing what it means to “work with what we got (or not).” Experience images of (ourselves) sexually empowered within our own very different and always changing bodies. We tell our stories on film and come together to experience each other's in the dark, then see each other in a new way when the lights come up.

PROGRAM

salt. water. caracol.
Mars/Mar Rosas
2014, US, experimental video, sound, 5:13.

Working with the theme of creation stories, “salt. water. caracol.” explores the filmmakers’ personal relationships with their tears, particularly those that come from wounding and trauma, & explores how these same tears can be used as a way to heal from ancestral and colonial trauma, which have all affected many members of their family, particularly through "psychiatric" disabilities (crazy gifts that need cultivation and care).

Hairy
mihee-nathalie lemoine
2014, Canada, experimental video, sound, 1:41.

100 seconds and 100 grams… “Hairy is a 100 second video on hairing & therefore masculinizing myself with 100 grams of my own hair…”

Shaving/Shorn
Lorin Murphy
2014, US, experimental fetish video, sound, 6:32.

“Shaving/Shorn” is an erotic shaving ritual.

untitled
Patricia Berne
2000, US, experimental sexplicit video poem, sound, 2:26.

This erotic short reflects the poetʼs cantor of desire in role play.

In My Own Hands
Crystal Mason
2014, US, experimental sexplicit video, sound, 3:50.

Explores the possibility of self love in the ruins of a society that teaches us to hate ourselves from the cradle to the grave & asks the question, “How do we fight back?”

visible
seeley quest
2014, US, experimental self portrait, sound, 11:03.

a queer's look at layers of exhibitionism, vulnerability, & hir shifting relationship to sexuality & gender through encounters with disability.

Forbidden Acts
Todd Herman featuring Leroy Moore
2006, US, 3 video poem vignettes, sound, 12 minutes.

An engaging glimpse into a black disabled writerʼs exploration of his own sexuality and the limits that social institutions attempt to impose upon its expression. Sweet sperm meets prose in these 3 video poems.

Money Shot Blues & How to Fake Ejaculation
Tobi Hill-Meyer
2014, US, comic sexplicit video, sound, 10:34

In Money Shot Blues Tobi recalls her brief experience in mainstream shemale* porn and some of the unexpected difficulties she encountered. How to Fake Ejaculation is a humorously presented short instructional demonstration of several techniques for faking ejaculation on camera.

(*Note: this is a derogatory term & it is not okay to use this word for Tobi or anyone else who does not explicitly choose to use it. It is used here only to describe the industry that has named itself using this term.)

KRUTCH
Clark Matthews & Mia Gimp
2013, US, accessible experimental sexplicit movie, sound (with audio description), 5:28

KRUTCH is a steamy, experimental short film exploring perception, sexuality, disability and gender on the streets and sheets of New York City.

Going Here
Courtney Trouble featuring Jiz Lee and Lyric Seal
2014, US, erotic dream sequence, sound, 13:00

In this scene from the unreleased feature Wet Dreams, Lyric and Jiz explore the edges of danger, public sex, experimentation, & lust. This exclusive excerpt is about letting our fantasies take over all else.

Wall of Fire
Lisa Ganser
2014, US, sexplicit experimental music video, sound, 6:04

Roles switch, paddles hit & control shifts when two fat bodied gender queer women, lovers off camera, push limits of pleasure, penetration & trust, engaged in an afternoon of tender making out and consensual amputee sex. Original Score by Nomy Lamm. This movie was completely underwritten & fully funded by the Smitten Kitten.

scars, ma[p]s, skin
MOON RAY RA
2014, US, experimental, sound, 1:56

Tracing queer of color scars & skin, this film leaves the pleasure to your imagination.

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Edited: December 13th, 2014

Un(dis)sing Our Abilities in Seattle Dec. 13

still from "Going Here" by Courtney Trouble

still from “Going Here” by Courtney Trouble

Periwinkle Cinema presents
Un(dis)sing Our Abilities
the Pacific Northwest premiere
18+
Saturday, Dec 13 at 7:00PM

Northwest Film Forum

1515 12th Ave, Seattle, Washington 98122

This screening includes captions for HoH/Deaf, and includes one movie that is audio described. Please refrain from wearing scents. The brief intro and Q & A will be ASL interpreted. Please arrive early if you BYOC. no one will be turned away for lack of funds – please reserve you NOTAFLOF seat in advance. please inquire if you have any access requests/needs to Lisa Ganser (Accessibility Coordinator for Periwinkle Cinema).

Featuring a Q&A with the curators and participating artists and filmmakers including Lisa Ganser, Nomy Lamm, Lorin Murphy and Seattle’s Tobi Hill-Meyer.

Un(dis)sing Our Abilities is an experimental sexplicit short movie showcase and is 18+.

* * * * *

Presented by Periwinkle Cinema, this program explores sensuality, intimacy, safety and consent through the lens of the less-represented. Curated by Lisa Ganser and Lorin Murphy, this screening implores the erotic pleasure and sexual abilities of those of us dissed, dismissed, (mis)labeled, disabled and generally passed over in mainstream queer crowds.

Redefine sexy through sex and sensuality that is healing, empowering and arousing. You’ll get turned on by fat, word associate crip and porn, challenge and subvert your notions of gender, sexuality and self, while exposing what it means to “work with what we got (or not).” Experience images of (ourselves) sexually empowered within our own very different and always changing bodies. We tell our stories on film and come together to experience each other’s in the dark, then see each other in a new way when the lights come up.

 

Edited: December 8th, 2014

STARS OUT, GUNS DRAWN: The Wrongful Death of Asa Sullivan

Get to know Asa Sullivan, shot by San Francisco police officers Michelle Alvis and John Keesor on 6/6/06.  Lisa and I had the opportunity to sit in on the wrongful death trial in Oakland in September, and were asked to write an article about it for the Bay View, with an intro by Mesha Irizarry.

 

During the trial over the wrongful death by San Francisco police of Asa Sullivan, Lisa Ganser and Nomy Lamm, friends of Asa’s mother, Kat Espinosa, made drawings of the proceedings. – Art: Lisa Ganser

During the trial over the wrongful death by San Francisco police of Asa Sullivan, Lisa Ganser and Nomy Lamm, friends of Asa’s mother, Kat Espinosa, made drawings of the proceedings. – Art: Lisa Ganser

“The day the trial started, Sept. 8, 2014, would have been Asa’s 34th birthday. What would Asa have thought, sitting in that federal courtroom in Oakland? Seeing his mom and the mother of his child forced to sit through gory photos and slanderous testimony, his brother and girlfriend kicked out of the courtroom because they were on the witness list?

What if Asa had been witness to this carefully constructed story, developed over eight years, played out during a month-long trial by a parade of SFPD officers and their changing stories, “expert witnesses” paid hundreds of dollars an hour to testify, and documents dug up from the span of Asa’s life to try to prove that his death was justified. That the police had no choice but to shoot him. That that’s what he wanted. Suicide by cop.

Asa would say this is bullshit.”

Read the article and see all the artwork here.

To support a local family who recently lost a loved one to racist police violence, please give to the fundraiser to pay for O’Shaine Evans’ funeral expenses here.

 

Edited: November 29th, 2014